I'm definitely not in labor right now... But what I am in is baby obsession.
Seriously. And I think it's sort of lame. I didn't want to be one of those women who got pregnant and completely forgot who she was beforehand - ie, ignoring old hobbies, thinking about nothing else but pregnancy and the baby, reading nothing but pregnancy/child rearing books and/or news articles, etc.
But lo and behold, here I am. And I'm obsessed. There isn't a ten minute period of time that goes by when I don't think something related to the pregnancy or the baby. And the thoughts run a complete spectrum of randomness:
-I need to call Babies R Us to get the 10% completion code worked out.
-Has the baby moved recently?
-Should I try to read one more book on natural childbirth before the big day? (Answer: no.)
-How much protein have I eaten today?
-Will I know if/when my water breaks if it's just a trickle?
-Did it break just now?
-Is this menstrual-crampy feeling real labor? Or just Braxton Hicks?
-I need to read some articles on _________. (Examples: baby sleep, breast feeding, the first month with a newborn, baby safety, breast milk pumping, etc.)
-I need a nursing top or two.
-Holy crap my life is going to change in a couple weeks.
-How am I going to survive on such a small amount of sleep?
-I need to schedule my second prenatal massage.
-Has the baby moved out of a head-down position?
-Should we switch me over to Verizon so we can have a new iPhone (with the nice video recorder) for baby's first moments?
-I might want a pedicure before baby comes.
Literally. My mind is just flooded with thoughts relating to this baby. So that's why blogging has been difficult - because I don't want every single post to be about the baby.
I know a lot of this is related to hormones. And a lot is related to my desire to be in control of things. I don't need to hear again that "no matter how much you prepare, you won't ever really be prepared" because I know. I get it.
But I can't let this stuff go! It's not in my nature to just kick back and "wing it" when I could be getting even more prepared.
So friends, just a head's up, these next few weeks of blogging might be nothing but baby stuff.
(AHHHHHHHHHHHHH <-------- me freaking out)